"Reasons of insanity" 12/2/13

I normally keep my thoughts & motives to myself..... I just had to let it out. Why I feel relaxed around that Street environment, so let me briefly explain.
I just never feel secure...... My Mother and baby Momma was always like that. At any given time it is "Get Out". I always made pacts with all kinds of different people, different places / different Race.... as something to fall on, after the rug is snached from under me. Trust me..... I have never felt secure in my life. Anybody who ever made me feel a level of comfort... I remained loyal to. Chris Costello / my deceased ex-Girlfriend / my Uncle James in Nashville, Tennessee. My Wife said "I dont have any positive Friends"..... I know why, I dont. ( TRUST !! ) I dont like giving people the power to fuck my life up, at their own will.......or their choice to do so. In my life I have been fucked over in EVERY situation that I have ever had, since BIRTH !!! Even my GrandMother was charging me $100 a week to live in her unFurnished GARAGE, after I moved back to Buffalo New York, in the winter and didnt have my own place yet... but secured a full-time job before returning home. My own gotdamn GrandMother !!!! & she didnt charge her Brother to live with her, in a warm bedroom. I never felt a since of being treated equal, as in compairison to my other family members.
To this day, it has been over 2 years since I have seen or talked to my Family.
Sad but true..............
Please go back in my blog & read the poem : "My Mother -&- Brother" to get further insight.