"Maturity Levels"

"Maturity Levels": from Poem book : Married to the DEVIL (2014)

December 17, 2013 at 4:46pm

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--- With success comes certain sacrifice ,

with duty comes a sense of responsibility   /

With maturity come greater intelligence,  

that's why the Lord spared me from death in the Streets   /

--- To be a leader of others...  

Shepherd who leads his people into a better life   /

Not a ignorant Nigga with a death wish,

who's only concerned with how his clothes look at the Bar, Friday nights   //

--- It could of been ME.............

to fall victim of certain circumstance    /

It could of been my mother  who cried over a casket,

then turned to Alcohol -&- Drugs to cope with the way FATE dealt her a bad hand   /

---- If a rose can grow from weeds...

thru concrete and gravel /

I can survive thru the hell of the ghetto,

then bloom into similar beautiful rose petals    //

From my 6th Poem book : "Married to the DEVIL" (2014) 

My Flow...... Poet spitting Poems

Actions speak louder than words,

Silence is deadly....

neglect C.R.E /

now you see,

my Hiss,

rather than my Purr,

that was Gently //

Tempt me & you will be,

History.... rather than Reality /

-My Poetry

stops me from doing actions,

that are ugly & deadly

I'd advise you:

Think wisely....

before you continue to fuck with me /

Isolate,

then destroy.....

Build up & then brake me /

Red flags from the beginning.....

I was blinded by Pussy //

My untold message to my MOTHER...

--Lost souls grow cold,

like half a brain after a stroke /

She never treated us equally.... is how I feel deep & sincerely-

still to this day, my heart is broke //

--Ive always loved you so dearly,

but feel like you dont care for me /

how sad my heart be /

to feel abandoned, living thru the many troubles of my childhood I seen /

wishing you would encourage me /

tears roll down my face,

thinking of you who could never be replaced-

the streets came with open arms.... as an embrace /

for your love, I gave chase /

WONDERING......

is it because I look like my Dad, the reason you hate to see my face ?? //

--I think that you blame me for my Brother being weak & unproductive....

Like it was my choice for him to be a Womanizing bum /

Stand on your own 2 feet & be a Man,

is what I learned,

growing up in the hood that I came from //

--My heart is heavy,

& I pledge my soul, to never stop loving you,

Believe that !!! /

Its never too late to repair our damaged relationship.... MOM

and get thing : back on track /////

Overseas life....

-Iraqi citizens resent
U.N troops patrolling their country -
American soldiers, need not to fukkin' be there /
Hopeless despair /
Animal instincts,
Muslims raised on urban combat & guerrilla warfare /
Roadside bombs,
Mortar rounds,
militants send children to blow Hum- V's in the air /
Politicians don't care.....
Black gold called: "oil",
is buried there //

-Terrorist praise the land Mecca.....
Infidels protecting holy streets /
Ignorance will shepherd them
to their final rest- in- peace /
Martyred in eternity -
Repentance stands firm in me......
Years of reflection & grief //

-Invasions /
Forcing democracy on people,
with no desire 
for innovation /
No winners
-or-
losers......
Just years of RETALIATION //

"Writing my Poems...like I usually do

-Freedom does not mean that your not in Prison /

Rifle brigade

Military issue /

-Give clues to you

& yet you continue to guess /

Whatever the fuck I feel,

I let a load off my chest /

Invest

in what.....

some raciest muthafucks who don't care /

like they give a shit about my family

or the Women who got them here /

-Science & Technology is a term

for millions its considered Global enslavement,

Citizens are blind,

Hearing Impaired //

I stair off into space sometimes

& wonder

was all that street shit, that Ive been thru, really worth it...

outside my home I hear "pop , pop"

I'm smart to always stay within my reach & means

who the fuck cares,

as my brain drifts off into thin air /

-Weak minded people are blind to life,

Like my Co-worker who spent the night yesterday....

I see things from every opinion /

& never scared to let my 12 Gauge be an intervention /

Westside connections,

alone on the throne -

without Jason "Snake" Lindsay

East Delavan & Chelsea lacks leadership & direction.....

Nobody I try to please /

Roaches itch & fungus cause disease /

-My Granny told me :

That I was her King /

To myself,

My hat I tip thee.... //

"My own understanding of the BIBLE"

 --Biblical terms
from spoken word,
my 7 books gain mass appeal    /
Thou shall not kill...
isnt factual...
revenge is deep ,
to all enemies....
its never over, unitl your blood is spilled    /
--Life isnt fair...
drop to your knees,
throw your hands in the air
& cry: God why.... ?   /
I'm firm in the things I believe,
& shit that I've seen,
re-actions deadly,
an - eye - for, an - eye    /
--Other peoples opinion dont intrest me,
their motives I question,
I'm thankful for my blessings....
2010 Clensed my soul,
if anybody step on your toes,
put a hole...
in their body with a serial number scrached riffel    /
--Walk like a man
& stand firm   /
your Family well being,
should be your only concern   /
send a message to your enemies,
Hell on earth,
is where you shall burn    /
---Adam was created first ,
Eve came from a portion of his rib...
miserable bitches are constantly complaining,
when it rains,  it pours...     /
nice deeds,
recieve no award   /
good guy's finish last...
Never marry the neighborhood Whore    //

*Sigh of relief*

-- Creative chaos...

best describes the New York streets

to which I was born     /

my birth Father could not respect his Vows....

foul with mental --& physical abuse,

#1 day I would avenge  

my Momma being scorn  //

-- Pressure burst pipes...

Blood vessels are not built for extreme tension  /

the Sperm donor'  could not handle "Married life"....

so,

my Mother became a domestic violence victim   /

-- If you want respect,

stand up like a MAN 

-&- earn it'    /

Now for the rest of my life,

my "Dad" can try to locate my ass.....

--&-- 

come kiss it     ///

Look like something worth having...

Taking Zyon I. Peay to school friday... 
I notice all the Mothers of the other children walking around in Rollers & Pajamas 
Look..... Women kill me complaining about why they cant find a "Good MAN"....
you walk around looking like SHIT all day -&- having a bad attitude......nobody is going to be intrested !!!!!!
I'm tired of Women not giving -a- shit about their appearance !!!!!
Have some gotdamn Confidence about yourself...."IF" you want to appeal to a Good MAN !!!
Seriously,
I have heard many female friends of mines, complaining about their being a lack of good Men. My question : are you ready for the gift of companship of the opposite sex ???
Dont complain if your life is a mess and you are not prepaired for any gifts that may be coming your way.
My son school cost $181 per week, CASH. So I know that these women can afford to fix their appearance.

"Moving on & UP"

Irving Bunker Peay

November 30, 2012

-I never felt proud, that I use to be a drug dealer... /
I always dreamed that my GrandMomma was rolling in her grave,
regretting...
not hearing my Screems & Hollars
I wanted OUT from that life, living around Killers /
-When I was a "Shorty" I had no voice.....
Afraid of CHANGE....
Afraid of everyone's opinion /
But as a Man..............................
I learned to move on' 
with out them Niggas,
seeing that they slowed me down,
& say FUCK them /
May GOD help me..........................
I still fight the Demon's -of- my Old ways /
Every breath I take now,
is to make sure
That "Check" is NOT cashed.....
that my Ass could not Pay .....................................////// — with Lakeia Campbell and18 others at The Sunshine State.

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"Married to the Devil": American Values... not shared around the WORLD

"Married to the Devil": American Values... not shared around the WORLD: In America, it is illegal to have 2 or more Wives at the same time. WHY ?? Why does American law differ from what is widely accepted around...

American Values... not shared around the WORLD

In America,
it is illegal to have 2 or more Wives at the same time. WHY ?? Why does American law differ from what is widely accepted around the world ?
In Islamic culture the Man commonly lives with multiple wives.
Being African- American,
it is important to know that in Africa, Kings were traditionally married to 5 + Wives.
King Chaka ZULU,
the most famous King, in southern Africa's history, was born to a Father : Sensenakorna ZULU... who had 9 Wives.
His Mother was the mistress of the King, making him a bastard.
Now, as Americans born from that culture, we somehow forgot the system of our original homeland.
Black Women in America have become selfish, in their needs / wants & desires.
Honestly,
what is the problem if a Man has multiple Wives ??
If he is able to provide / love / pay attention & fulfill the needs of each Woman
then why should American laws & recent liberations,
prevent us American men, from having the same amount of Wives as the rest of Men, in other countries around the world.
America has overstepped its boundaries !!!!
GOD made man in his own image.
GOD took a portion of Adam's rib ---& made Eve.
GOD wants us to be fruitful & multiply
The BIBLE says : "Spread thy SEED"
In America.....Women and Government are going aganist GOD's wishes, when prevent Men from having many / many Wives !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is extremely unacceptable.

Irving R. Peay
12/7/2013

"Married to the Devil": my GrandMA's message

"Married to the Devil": my GrandMA's message: Irving Bunker Peay 5 minutes ago   My Grandmother use to call me into her room, tell me to shut the door. Then make me sta...

my GrandMA's message

Irving Bunker Peay

5 minutes ago 

My Grandmother use to call me into her room, tell me to shut the door. Then make me stand there for a longtime talking to me -&- telling me different things, that I did not understand at that point.
She would tell ME:
"You are better than that (Pointing outside to the streets)..... You are a Leader, Intelligent and handsome. One day you will be something. Somebody that helps others. Somebody that becomes a MAN -&- makes me PROUD"
I use to just stare at the floor....not understanding her 
I MISS HER so much !!!! May GOD Rest her SOUL     

"Having a ruff day" 12/3/13

 -- Life takes 2 steps forward &

3 steps backwards  /

This the 1st you ever heard...

my spoken word...

teach on a subject   --

grab a grip & hold firm,

"CONTROL"

is the word   /

& I will give examples of my life,

in a subliminal message:     //

--Settle down & commit

to any woman &

increasingly she will become a Bitch....

in the book of Genesis,

the Bible taught us this   //

Eve, manipulated Adam

to bite from a fruit

he did not hunger for...

under a tree     /

that apple gave off the aroma of pussy   /

sex can be therapy--

like:   your nose itching,

but for some reason.... you cannot sneeze   /

Believe me....

also... I'm guilty,

many times I have indulged in life's pleasure   /

my penis has its own mind

& 81  women

has enjoyed its affection    /

- Go hard -or- go home....

I was taught  @  an early age:

"In life we all have choices"    /

Human beings are not Puppets",

life is a game,

& when the game is rigged....

wave a white flag,

surrender & forfit   //

-when you die,

there's only 1 person in that cascut  /

remember that shit...

never let someone

 manipulate or control your thought patterns   //

-- I didnt realize it....

before,

when I complained about it   /

Life is a Bitch     /

dont let her control you.....

because theres always other OPTIONS     ///

"Married to the Devil": "Reasons of insanity" 12/2/13

"Married to the Devil": "Reasons of insanity" 12/2/13: I normally keep my thoughts & motives to myself..... I just had to let it out. Why I feel relaxed around that Street environment, so le...

"Reasons of insanity" 12/2/13

I normally keep my thoughts & motives to myself..... I just had to let it out. Why I feel relaxed around that Street environment, so let me briefly explain.
I just never feel secure...... My Mother and baby Momma was always like that. At any given time it is "Get Out". I always made pacts with all kinds of different people, different places / different Race.... as something to fall on, after the rug is snached from under me. Trust me..... I have never felt secure in my life. Anybody who ever made me feel a level of comfort... I remained loyal to. Chris Costello / my deceased ex-Girlfriend / my Uncle James in Nashville, Tennessee. My Wife said "I dont have any positive Friends"..... I know why, I dont. ( TRUST !! ) I dont like giving people the power to fuck my life up, at their own will.......or their choice to do so. In my life I have been fucked over in EVERY situation that I have ever had, since BIRTH !!! Even my GrandMother was charging me $100 a week to live in her unFurnished GARAGE, after I moved back to Buffalo New York, in the winter and didnt have my own place yet... but secured a full-time job before returning home. My own gotdamn GrandMother !!!! & she didnt charge her Brother to live with her, in a warm bedroom. I never felt a since of being treated equal, as in compairison to my other family members.
To this day, it has been over 2 years since I have seen or talked to my Family.
Sad but true..............
Please go back in my blog & read the poem : "My Mother -&- Brother" to get further insight.

"Married to the Devil": My Mother -&- Brother

"Married to the Devil": My Mother -&- Brother: --  From Basketball star to Drug addict... From Mortgage Broker to gambling fanatic... The path they traveled is the yellow brick...

"Married to the Devil": My Mother -&- Brother

"Married to the Devil": My Mother -&- Brother: --  From Basketball star to Drug addict... From Mortgage Broker to gambling fanatic... The path they traveled is the yellow brick...

Irving's nature...

The possibilities are endless, in life as we all grow into the person that God created us to become. From an early age I have an creative imagination. Daily I would write poetry, draw or take apart a working object, in order to learn how exactly it functioned.

Constant curiosity drove me to think outside of my New York street environment. AS if I we’re an explorer, in search of a new land to discover. A person who gets bored very quickly, is the best way to describe my active nature. I would walk around the neighborhood and go through the neighbors backyards just to see how #1 particular street was sectioned off from the others. School was not that appealing to me, I viewed the work as boring and unrelated to the surroundings to which I was thrown into. Reality interests me, more than learning about things that will never be apart of my life situations.
    
        As life continues, I will continue to feed my hungry and curious mind with knowledge daily. Lord willing, it will be harvested very fruitfully.